style | take control of your happiness

hello,

it has been pretty good weather up until today. last tuesday i was so motivated to blog, that i decided to put on my wedges & hit the park. it was such a beautiful day & i took a moment to think to myself how grateful i am to have the people i have in my life. lately (or since january to be exact), i haven't been myself. i haven't been the happy kay that people know me to be. i feel like although there are great things going on in my life, i still feel there is so much more missing. i feel like i should be doing more, accomplishing more, saying more, saying less, & most of all, praying and thanking God more.

unfortunately, i have been dwelling on what would have, should have or could have been. worrying, becoming frustrated at minor things & just annoyed that things aren't going my way anymore. i've even disappeared (according to my friends). i just haven't been motivated to hang out with them. i often feel that all along i have pretended to relate to them, when really we are nothing a like. what kind of friend does that make me? not a good one i suppose...so i've just decided to distance myself. distance myself from those i once adored, enjoyed spending time with, laughing with and overall just living life with. 

is it wrong to say i want new friends? because i do. ones i can relate to, ones i can trust, ones that will be there no matter how busy their lives get. but there's always fam[ily] right? i love them & they will always be here for me. aside from that, school is great, my diet is still horrible, listening to joyce meyers & joel olsteen keeps me sane, i toss & turn at night, so no sleep for me & the person who i want to pay the most attention & give the most time to me barely exist these days.

but when i step outside of myself, i tell myself that things could be a lot worst. & that there are people out there, who wish everyday they could have a piece of the good that i have going on in my life. i have realized that being happy is a choice & it's something you have to work at. so i have decided to take control of my happiness.

hope you enjoy this post <3

 dress: fun & flirt | handbag: kenneth cole reaction | necklace: charming charlie | wedges: soda

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